Dear Self

Dear self
I just want to be skinny and beautiful. I have unconsciously become obsessed with eating well. To the point where I’d rather not eat at all if there’s nothing good.
At points I get frustrated and contemplate not eating, or throwing it back up, and it scares me. I don’t want to go back there.
I want to be strong and independent, so I’ve stopped telling people when stuff is wrong. I just hope it bends me and doesn’t break me.

Sincerely, lost