Dear World: This is my life

19 Sep

Dear World,
This is my life: I am in my 40’s. I immigrated here when I was 2. People have made fun of me for my dark skin, the shape of my nose, my face. I am an American citizen, but people always want to know what country I’m from not what state. I was bullied, called fat and made to feel ugly. My parents are critical, domineering and unloving. All they care about is how fat I am and want me to do everything they tell me; again I am 40. To get away, I married a horrible, selfish, cruel, mean-spirited man. I walk around trying to please them all because I am bullied by all of them. I am afraid and alone. I have filed for divorce and now am filing for bankruptcy. When I look in the mirror, I see a fat, ugly failure. I just want to know what I did to deserve this? And I want to know if it will ever get better? I see people with loving parents. I see women with loving husbands. I want to be them instead of this hopeless waste! Why? I just want to know why no one loves me; not for real? Is there such. thing as a selfless, loving person? Is there?


3 Responses to “Dear World: This is my life”

  1. Heather Merklin October 17, 2013 at 12:30 am #

    Start by looking in the mirror and seeing the person I see in your words — someone worth loving!

  2. Mariette Papic (@MsPapic) March 20, 2014 at 10:33 pm #

    it’s never too late to regain your trust in yourself and the world. never, ever too late, beautiful One.

  3. vkvanna April 15, 2014 at 1:30 am #

    You were created by God and were made to be loved. Look to Him and look within. You are so worthy of love…you just have to believe that you are!!

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